Friday, June 16, 2006


I was surfing around my friends' blogs, plucked this one from C's

When things seem hard to handle or out of control, its time to regroup.

I can't agree with you more. Though that really sounded like a military strategy. Maybe you have been influenced by me in using military analogies? Grin

Yeah, its time to regroup. Mistakes were made, casualties sustained but the outcome yet to be decided upon. Time to pull back, refit and reassess.

To C...thanks for being such an inspiration sometimes.

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

Chance meeting

I ran into my old mentor F while I was out and about. We haven't had a good chat for the longest time and the irony of it all is that we both attend the same church and while I am involved in VCF, he is a full time staff in its parent organisation, FES. Since we both had nothing much to do, coffee seemed like the optimum agenda.

The thing about F is that he is a thinker. His thoughts usually centres upon his faith and his walk. He shared his struggle with his desires intently with me. Desire apart from God serves to bring us into conflict with Him and His will. The only way to overcome this is be broken by God and to surrender to His will. This brought the song written by my friend Whack to my mind. In it it goes "Desire is a many headed beast". Indeed desire is something that can be untame and chaotic; if left to its own devices can cause unimaginable damage.

This led me to reflect on my own struggle with my desires. The beast which is desire was indeed loose and I can only imagine what that beast has done. It pains me more when I realised the hurt caused to people dear to me. Perhaps its time to shape up.

And in a classic F moment, he shared to me about this poly dude in his campus ministry who is blind yet truely he is the one who sees.

Sunday, June 11, 2006


A: Its ok to date a non-Christian, just can't marry her. But even then, the complications with trying to convert within a relationship might be tricky

D: I know. I ain't gonna marry her if she ain't a Christian.

A: So if you ain't gonna marry her, why date her?

Classic understatement......

Another night

A classic moment...

Its drizzling, you ring the door bell incessantly, you call the house phone, you hear the guitar shredding away............

Saturday, June 10, 2006

That night

Was struggling to complete a bible study for VCF's CG guide. Having no inspiration so resorted to this. Remembered a conversation I had with an aquaintance. Someone perhaps at one point played a major role in events of my university life.

The point is not to relate the past events. But something he said struck me. He described himself as defined by his past and his present state of emotions was a consequence of him holding onto his past.

As students of History, we understand that history is necessary subjective for the historian chooses information which he deems as important to weave into a coherant narrative. The late great E H Carr espouses this.

So, what we understand today about history necessarily goes through a process of selection and discarding. Same goes for our own personal stories.

The question is why do some, myself included, always allow ourselves to be defined by events that are less than jolly. For it clouds our self perception and judgement of our situation.

I'm only beginning to see my folly.